In the book The War of Art by Steven Pressfield (which I highly recommend for just about anyone who struggles with making the things they know they should be making — which is basically ever artist I’ve ever met– ) it states:
Rule of thumb: The more important a call or action is to our soul’s evolution, the more Resistance we will feel towards pursuing it.
If that’s the case, I have some extremely important stuff to get started on.
I’ve got a crazy busy job, but I know what I should be doing and I’ve known it for a long time, and the last several months I’ve been on the cusp, the precipice, the edge of the good stuff, the real stuff. The next chapter. The beginning of the rest of everything. Hopefully this will make more sense a few months down the line when there is a greater body of work here. Or maybe it’s ultimately moot, as the only point of this is to start. Yeah, I’ll go with that one.
So why start tonight?
Because my apartment isn’t getting any tidier. My bills are paid (the minimums anyway). My email inboxes are as clear as they’ve ever been.
I assure you there are no duplicates in my Itunes library at this time.
There are detailed charts and to-do lists which outline all the things I know I should be doing. I am resisting every urge to make charts and graphs to track my charts and graphs.
Tonight I cooked all my meals for the week. I never cook all my meals for the week.
Tonight I start because my soul just can’t fucking take not starting another minute.
So what exactly is it I’m starting? Not sure, but in a few seconds I am going to press Publish, and that’ll be that.
So there. Let’s go bitches!